Moon Gaze Star

One of my students wanted to drop out of college because he's been offline for a long period of time. Which is something I found odd? I always attentive and record their attendance, well, by an online course. It still Covid-19 and we conducting our class online. I did a couple of turns and wanted to key in attendance by watching them online and join in our group online class using Skype. I had to ask them to turn off the video because their internet line getting slower if more than 10 are logged in. Now, he made a complaint to our CEO and wanted to drop out because he can't even follow-up with us and don't understand our teaching online.  There's one thing I may understand that the way he said is like blaming us, the lecturer/educator for not explaining to us more or not taking responsibility attending the class. I may misinterpret this but, that's how my point of view looked like. Even from the last entry, I was bummed out for unable to keep my work. Now my focus b

Today is a grim day for me, that I am once again, will be jobless after the month of August. Even so, I am happy I had this opportunity together and how hard it is to become an educator. I am grateful to experience this, so I had no argument with the boss that I made terrible decisions for the past few months ago.  In my early childhood year, my mother passed away, which is caused me in a brink of sadness. At first, it becomes a trigger to me whenever people mentioned about my late mother. I would always cry. I did what I could to steel myself, without any help from a doctor or psychiatry. I did notice a change within me. Mostly mentality. I can't comprehend the common sense of a decision. Even taking action to solve the problem. I sorta, forgot them, swiping left. Until it resurfaces again. Which is quite annoying to do my task. Because of this, I begin to fear what might happen to me if I took another job in a different position. Is it going to repeat it again until I may incapab

For the past few years ago, I've been forced to resign from my first job company after receiving countless accounts of my mistakes during my work. I admitted I did my best, but unable to keep myself to their expectation. Nonetheless, I had to reflect and decided to resign on their terms. With a whole lot of debts need to chase, I need to find another job. Somehow, I did stop and wonder how I get so careless during my time in days of work. Sure I did go a lot of clinics after receiving different symptoms like Middle Ear Infection and etc... But one thing I can shake my feelings off is how forgetful I am. I know that I always being the forgetful one in the team, but every assignment given I try to deliver them, some of my previous team ignores my notes, and I can't blame them as they are equally busy as I am. Even the notice from other departments gives their terms on how to proceed with the SOP, I keep forgetting this and that. Not to mention, I once forgot their name in on